Thursday, 31 October 2013

erm it's ma birthday x

Im 17 now x
So its my birthdasy today! im not really doing anything today but  i am having a little dinner 
in the next few weeks with all my friends!

This is me taking horrible webcam photos and editing them on paint, oh it feels like 2005

new playsuit came! yay 


Monday, 28 October 2013


Hello there!!

I am selling some gorgeous brand new shoes on gumtree that unfortunely are the wrong size for me!!

Have a look, check them out, and if you like any message me on there or even comment :)

(sizes from 7-7.5us)

thats all for now
till next time, xx tania

Sunday, 27 October 2013

New Shoes | Windsor Smith Eden's

Hello Anyone and everyone!!

Popped into Windsor smith the other day just to have a look around, and i came across these beauties in the sale section. I grabbed them off the shelf before i even knew they were on sale. I can never fit in any Windsor Smith shoes, i have probably tried on the entire shop, but their shoes are made very narrow and i have a wide foot, so buckles are my best friend. I did have to get size au 8.5 even though i am usually 7/8 but they weren't wide enough. Anyways i am in love with them! 
They were $149 down to $79

take care
till next time, xx tania

Sunday, 20 October 2013

20th of October

It is always hard to loose a pet, especially when you have to get them put down.
There is no easy way to deal with this at all. I had not intention of writing this post,  and i might even delete is soon but yeah
You feel as thought you would be killing my pet, although they might be ill, and my be suffering, what if they didn't want to die what if they wanted to endure the pain just to keep living, would i be their murderer? these thought ran through my head for a over a year and in that time i was causing more pain upon him. But i didn't want to choose his time to go i didn't want to be the one to kill him because i would have to live with the thought every day, that what if he was actually okay what if he would have made it through and recovered. He could have lived for years further. But in the end you have to do what is humanly right, what deep down you know is right.
Once it is done, you feel numb, trying not to flood the room with your tears, it does not feel real, although when you get home they are not their to greet you and for the next couple days/weeks even you fell sad and cry but it hasn't hit you yet, you have the usual habits of calling them over or petting them on the couch next to you and secretly feeding them under the table at meal time and when you go to do those things and realize they are not there, it just feels as though they are away for a bit but after a while, one day it hits you, like a train through a brick wall.
You can never physical see them again, hug them again, the thought of them never being able to ruffle their face into yours when they can tell your upset. Never to see the delight on their face when you bring out the lead to go for a work or give them a treat. The fact of never being able to physically touch them ever agin for the rest of your life, it is absolutely and utterly heart breaking, life breaking.
I found this poem not to long after and it went like this:

You're giving me a special gift,
So sorrowfully endowed,
And through these last few cherished days,
Your courage makes me proud.
But really, love is knowing
When your best friend is in pain,
And understanding earthly acts
Will only be in vain.
So looking deep into your eyes,
Beyond, into your soul,
I see in you the magic, that will
Once more make me whole.
The strength that you possess,
Is why I look to you today,
To do this thing that must be done,
For it's the only way.
That strength is why I've followed you,
And chose you as my friend,
And why I've loved you all these years...
My partner 'til the end.
Please, understand just what this gift,
You're giving, means to me,
It gives me back the strength I've lost,
And all my dignity.
You take a stand on my behalf,
For that is what friends do.
And know that what you do is right,
For I believe it too.
So one last time, I breathe your scent,
And through your hand I feel,
The courage that's within you,
To now grant me this appeal.
Cut the leash that holds me here,
Dear friend, and let me run,
Once more a strong and steady dog,
My pain and struggle done.
And don't despair my passing,
For I won't be far away,
Forever here, within your heart,
And memory I'll stay.

I'll be there watching over you,
Your ever faithful friend,
And in your memories I'll run,
...a young dog once again.

This just killed me, yet gave me a bit of hope that maybe indeed he did feel this and i  made the right chose. Though something as simple as this poem cannot heal the gaping wound in ones heart from the absence of a friend. for a long time i dwelled on them not being here, yet never thought of where they were to go. Untill recently i i stumbled upon a site that gathered people grieving the loss of a pet and it spoke of a "rainbow Bridge" it mentioned this a lot even in other poems  Then i found it, found something so beautiful, magical and full of Hope! Something that brought me an abundance of comfort.

 Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. 

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. 
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. 
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable. 

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. 
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind. 

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster. 

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart. 

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together.... 

I wish i had heard of this sooner, i am mainly writting this in hope that someone who has experenced this loss, will find this and gain even the littlest bit of comfort. I just thought of all the happy animals running in freedom and all the health and happiness they ever could have imagined. 
Maybe even possibly the fact that they are waiting for you, their owner, their friend, that they might actually miss you as much as you miss them. 

I don't know know what im writing and i sorry for the complete lack of structure in the post but i was just writing what was coming out of my mind although i could not put into words the majority of what i actually wanted to say.

Take care all, and that's all from me
till next time, xx tania

Post in honore of
27th July 1997- 20th October 2011

Sunday, 13 October 2013

Masketta Fall Concert!

Howdy There!

Last night i went to the Masketta Fall Sydney concert!!
It was sick as, the guys were radtastic how i thought they would be! I've meant to go see them two times before but my friends couldn't go last minute, this time i didn't even bother asking anyone to come with me because i know none of them would have wanted to, so i went alone, hahaah but i met the nicest people there and hung out with them. and during to concert your listening to the music and not talking to anyone anyways. 
 I didn't got to many good photos, because i wasn't really focusing on that and my video of one of there songs was actually pretty good but the sound was horrible so i can't use it! But i have a snip-it of their cover of Pompeii up on Youtube. (click the large photo below!) After the concert there was a crowd around Moli, and he planned to go into maccas, and lets just say it got
 crazy, watch the video at the bottom of this post to see what happened!

I had the best time that night and they are actually the nicest dudes,
after their performance i showed Big Red (above picture on the right) that picture i took of him, 
and instaed of just signing my page her wrote 
"Tania, your photo's are awesome! Big Love Big Read :)"
How nice of him i thought, that just made my whole night!
i'll leave all their links below, you should definitely go check them out!!

So that's all from me, take care
till next time, xx tania

Twitter: @MaskettaFall
Facebook: /Masketta Fall
iTunes: New EP

Wednesday, 2 October 2013

General update

lips: lasting finish by Kate Moss #16

I haven't blogged in almost a month, oops! so sorry! i am currently just  finished Grade 11 and on holidays and have been busy almost everyday with catching up with friends, old school friends and family. (alot of baby sitting -.-) But the main thing that has been keeping me very busy and not to mention stressed, is deciding on what to do with my life. to put it simply. I have decided, after much time & thought to finish school this year. This is the best decision for me, not that i feel as though i have to give an explanation for myself, but this way i can be spending all my time on studding in the field i want to pursue a career in, instead of spending everyday and lots of time outside of school, doing countless essays for subjects i have absolutely no interest in. i will leave my rant of the education for another day, but lets just say that i cannot work to the best of my ability in school circumstances. besides that i still know there is no excuse for not posting, so im sorry! but i will make it up, promise! And at the moment the items on my life check list are as follows:

  • Study for, book and succeed in my drives test
  • Find a new job
  • choose what course i want to do for next term
  • Shop less and Blog more!
I have alot happening this month, as i do every October, and i have some posts planned! (maybe a haul coming up?)

So that all from me, till next time xx tania